Lds, family, love, weakness.

So my school has a lot of lds kids; which deffinatly makes it easier now that I'm not the only one at my school, but harder at the same time. It's like my belief is being questioned. It's horrible to see some of the friends I've made, that call themselves good lds people, and yet they do these things that just aren't right. I'm not saying their not good people; but to show that they are giving into the world? How can they call themselves good lds members. Isn't the point to set good examples and share the gospel? It's been hard for me to see my family going through the rebellion stages of the church. My brother, a former missionary, has gone through some tough times and his faith has stuggled a bit. But my mom was on the phone earlier today and I overheard her say that he knows he needs to make a change in his life, that he's recognizing what he's missing in his life. Thank goodness for that, because I know that when I was younger; he was my biggest hero. My other brother looked up to him without a doubt, and I know for a fact that his faith is there, it's just going through a rebellion stage. Just to see how far he can push the limits. My family are all very good people; some of the best I've ever met, and I'm not just saying that because their my family. Even just meeting them, you would know that I'm telling the truth. To stay so positive, happy, and fun to be around when their going through what their going through; it's truly an inspiration. They have all had their share of trials. Talking about my family just brings a smile to my face because I know that no matter what happens, they'll always be by my side. I think that everyone has things they need to work on, we all have flaws; even though we don't like to see it, we have them. But why not use those flaws to benefit us? Sounds kind of weird doesn't it? In seminary, one of the scripture masteries stated that we all have weaknesses, we were given them for a reason, to be humble. If we were perfect, how humble could we really be when everyone else has flaws and we didn't? We are given these little flaws for learning experiences, to become strong. You can turn those weaknesses into strengths. That was my favorite scripture of all time; mainly because I see how amazing my sisters are and how I wish that I was just like them... but I need to learn to be myself and be okay with who I am. Nobody is perfect, it's just the way life is meant to be, so don't let that get you down and just be glad that you are you. It scares me that my sisters will be getting married and moving away; there's nobody I'm closer with than them, but that's part of growing up. Their making their own lives and I get to be apart of that! You are all so strong, you can do anything that you really set your mind to, and that's not a lie. When I was about 10, I wanted to go canoeing so bad but I was told to wait till tomorrow. Of course I had my mind set on the fact that I would go on a canoe. So I dragged it all the way out from the shed to the lake by myself, and was ready to go. A 10 year old little girl. Just don't give up; giving up won't get you anywhere. Just have a little faith and you can do anything.

Every day.

Every day I walk out of school and my mom is there to get me; we have our daily convo. This is where we talk about the daily drama, new guys, new crushes, grades, and what went on. This is usually my favorite time of day; when it's about me and not my siblings for the moment. Just a good mother daughter moment. But I guess not many of my friends have anything that special, not even close to that? My friend Jonathon said that it was like my family was the ideal american family, where the daughter comes home and asks how her day was; just how perfect we seemed to be. It seems weird to me that other people wouldn't want to be that close to the people that they are related to; the ones that will be there the rest of their lives. Why though? There is nothing I could be happier about than just spending the day with my family; I could care less if my friends weren't able to hang out, I would much rather have my siblings and my parents. We all have that close friendship where anything that's wrong in the world just seems alright. Why doesn't everyone want something like that? Personally, I think we could all work harder at a closer family relationship; because these are the people that can help you get through anything. Don't you want someone you can come to when everything seems to just be going wrong? Family is everything... it's happiness, struggles, laughter, fighting, love, playful teasing... it's what makes life so amazing, so worth while.

So to my family; I love you guys, thanks for being there for me through everything.