Growing Up.

It's not such a bad thing really. In fact, I've been waiting to grow up since as long as I could remember. I don't know why, but there was always more to life than what was really in front of me. I've always wanted to know about love, about families, about jobs, and what makes the world go round. Not of a scientific manner of course, but of a different sort of function. What makes people do what they do? I'm curious. Always have been and always will be. Yet, I can't stop trying to figure people out. It can either hurt you, or make you closer with someone. People don't like being told what their doing wrong, what their thinking, or how they should live their lives. So who are we to tell them? There is nothing that I could ever do or say to someone that would make them wish they had never met me. I just can't. Have you ever looked at someone? I mean REALLY looked at someone? Their face... their expression... their body language? If you honestly care about someone... pay attention to them! It's nice to see that people notice when you're not doing so well, or even when they are! It shows you care! So quit caring about what people think and open up to others.. open up to yourself! I realized that I missed telling people how I was really feeling, because if you don't say something, it will never be said. I'm tired of being treated like a baby and not being aloud to grow up like everyone else. But, when you're the baby of a large family, it's what you'll always be. You just have to accept it and show them you don't act like one. So I've taken responsibility in job searching, driving, friendships, relationships, church, and anything else that you can think of. I have to live up to my expectations for myself. But when you've gone through so much so soon at such a young age, you begin to think things are impossible. That's truly where hope comes in. Because when you lose that, what are you really living for? It's like going through the actions of living, without actually living! WE'RE DONE WITH THAT! Get off of your butt and live! Do things that you're afraid of! Travel! Make new friends! Do what makes you happy! Because after all, everyone deserves to be happy.